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  1. RichHopefulComposer

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    Absorbs life force.
    Yesssss. Give me your power, GMC!! Game development is hard! Just lay down and rest - it'll all be over soon! >=D

    Nah, just kidding. I just had a really depressing ****ty few months, too. Finally snapping out of it and working on my game again. Feels like I'm walking into a nice warm field after crawling around in a dark cave for almost half a year.
    Never say never though, everybody. If you're feeling down on gamedev, take a break! Don't decide you're done forever though, unless you really just don't enjoy it anymore. And if you really don't enjoy it anymore, before quitting for good, I think it's best to ask yourself why you don't enjoy it anymore. I find it hard to believe that people who've worked so hard on a creative outlet like making games can suddenly just stop liking it one day. If you're not enjoying game dev anymore, it's probably got more to do with outside factors or how you're approaching game dev than the actual act of game development itself. Reflect a bit and then come back later if possible! ):
     
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    I am like the cat from Coraline; you cannot get rid of me and I will continue to pass through. At least you will always have company!
     
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    As long as you're black like the cat from Coraline, you'll match the decor, at least. :')
     
  4. BiTrunade

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    Life is the main reason, whether it is school or social life, or even your health life. After 6 years of programming and more than 7 hours of sitting on a chair programming, I am finally paying the price, whether it is a strict diet or working out till my muscle burns.

    I love programming, and it is the only thing that I love... but sometimes I want to pursue music! or...singing! or acting! or even an author, I want to try all these things and I know very much that programming holds me back.

    I remember when I was 6 years old (6 years before starting programming) I was a talented woodworker, I used to build all kinds of swords, bows, crossbows, catapults, and many more out of wood. I used to make movies before programming, drawing frame by frame a cartoon using MS Paint. And I was acting a lot (I still have recordings of my silly 10 year old acting), and I used to play lots of games.

    But then after I've encountered GameMaker, my life had changed. Everything started to revolve around GameMaker, nothing else, no acting, no woodworking, no singing or playing, just game development. It was awesome at beginning (You know, super young and no responsibilities) but after I started getting more responsibilities I knew there was someday (which is 2018) to give up game development.

    I knew it since then that I will give up programming eventually... counting down to that day was the real torture. But now since the day has finally come, I feel happy, no more counting down. No more counting down. Just... no more counting down.
     
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  5. Amon

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    I guess I can confess this now. While owning the greatest computer known to man, the Commodore 64, I went near... OK, OK, OK..... I played with a Spectrum. Only one time though but I was thinking of my Commodore the whole time.
     
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  6. EvanSki

    EvanSki King of Raccoons

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    I confess that this is my favorite thread ever
     
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  7. Misty

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    I confess I don't wish to confess to any of the wicked things I have done, most of which I haven't the slightest guilt or remorse for whatsoever.
     
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  8. Misty

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    Not if I feast on their souls first.

    Truth.
     
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  9. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    I confess that I am not really a penguin.
     
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  10. Kepons

    Kepons Lost The Bet

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    Truly shocking. I guess everyone should know that I'm not actually a pear as well.

    Also, I'm very lazy and have done barely any gamedev this year.
     
  11. Bentley

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    I think furries are hot.

    Confession 2: I edited this post from "Furries turn me on" b/c I didn't like the phrase "turn me on" for some reason.
     
  12. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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  13. Bearman_18

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    @amusudan ive done that too.
    I confess I'm racist against humans. Including myself. Not including Jesus. Who is part God anyway.

    I confess I really want to feed the troll. And barely can contain it.

    I confess nuts goner is my knew favorite phrase, and I will use it.

    @RichHopelessComposer please make a youtube vid where you play those crappy games and comment. I also love games like that.

    I "confess" I listen to Jordan Peterson.
     
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  14. Thunder Lion

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    I confess I want to make a game really bad but inventory systems bore the crap out of me...but I admit that I am learning to use my old engines to skip all the busy work of many things. So far I got a working inventory memory...now I have to convince myself I won't go on my PC and waste hours on Overwatch while making my game in the background between matches...
    I also play video games to hide from my family sense I really don't like how they view me. I'm not competitive but they are and it makes me depressed. Video games are boring...but they let me ignore life....
    I also try to convince myself that I don't want kids or a gf/wife because I fear that my family will gain control over my wife and children and that my life will revolve around them but offer me nothing back (meaning them doing good by me for my sake), I also fear being divorced and losing my kids...
     
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  15. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    I broke the dam.
     
  16. Simon Gust

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    I confess that I love to use the word "gay" as an adjective for something that is either negative or positive.
    I am not actually gay and most importantly not a homophobe even if I sound like one.
     
  17. Rivo

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    I confess that I'm really lonely and girls confuse the hell out of me... Might turn gay for a bit.
     
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  18. Barvix

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    bruh that's me. i feel personally attacked

    (just gonna pop in here every few months with updates on me since it seems like as good of place as any)

    I confess I still can't do gamedev. I have made attempts to get back into it, but only for short bursts (I'll get into that in a bit). I am "designing" a game . . . whether or not I will get out of the small design stage is anyone's best guess. It's not even a big game. It's just focused on one tiny mechanic that is also centered around the art style. Chances it will be anything more: probably close to 0

    And like my good friend said (I consider him a friend. Hopefully it's not a 1 way street lol), a bunch of outside factors (most I mentioned last time) were affecting me doing gamedev. Reflected a lot on them - and the main things that keep me from going on are just time (family stuff) and carpal tunnel.

    Also back to that short burst thing I mentioned earlier. I got some good news - I am not depressed! Turns out I am actually bipolar. And if your parents have something like bipolar you are more likely to develop bipolar in your lifetime. Who knew? so yeah that's what's going on with me.

    Too long; didn't read

    I still try every now and then to do gamedev but can't, usually because of family or health reasons. Mistook bipolar for depression, which apparently is common according to one of the doctors I visited. So yeah, see y'all in November or something lol. Maybe by then I can finally do gamedev again.

    edit: for those reading this in the future and might be in the same boat as me - try to find something you love. like a new hobby. for me I've been getting into reading Marvel comic books and tried getting into sketching/drawing, mainly comic book characters like Moon Knight and Spider-Man. Getting a hobby or new hobby to fill the void of Gamedev will help keep your mind sharp and keep your productive. Doing nothing will just throw you into a deep slump that is hard to get out of.
     
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  19. RichHopefulComposer

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    @Barvix: I'm glad you're back, at least! =)
    Hope things pick up for you!
     
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  20. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    I confess I miss you barvix
     
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  21. BiTrunade

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    I still make assets :)
     
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  22. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    Shocking.
     
  23. BiTrunade

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    After 3 attempts of "giving up"... Yeah, it really is.
     
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  24. RichHopefulComposer

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    Yesssss. It might sound silly, but I was worrying about you literally like two or three days ago. Or a week ago. Time's a blur for me lately. Anyway, I checked your profile and was like "ugh, he's been gone like two months? Maybe he really quit? ): "

    And suddenly, you're back! That's great! Welcome back! =D
     
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  25. BiTrunade

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    Thanks so much, man!

    I really missed this forum, I just been really focusing on studying, you know, last year of school and I really trying to get into college :D Wish me luck!
     
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  26. Yanevski

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    Confession: I have no friends and I can't get anything done because nobody is there to say "that's cool man! keep it up!" and thus everything just feels unavailing.
     
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    @Yanevski: Show us what you're making! I bet someone will think it's cool!
     
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    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    That's cool man! keep it up!
     
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    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    I'm a drummer, and I like to think I'm pretty good, but when I perform I always get really sweaty hands.

    Out of the three times I've performed I've dropped a drumstick every time, once I flung it into the audience.
     
  30. Simon Gust

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    oh hey, I am also a drummer!

    I also get sweaty hands but I have not dropped a stick before because of it. The reason must be that I have to play more quietly as I play in a rather small brass band (and there are 3 of us on percussion).

    What kind of sticks to you use? I guess if you use more natural materials (wood instead of plastics / wood + plastic coating) it could help your grip.
     
  31. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    Just wooden sticks, and yeah I do have to really bash on my drums because I really only play rock haha
     
  32. Misty

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    I confess that furries used to turn me on, but not anymore so.

    I also confess that Kepons avatar makes me laugh.

    I confess that I badly want to give people hugs, but I can't because I am trapped inside of the internet.
     
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    I secretly want to just pay a bunch of people to make my dream games real....one project in particular rings to mind. Once I'm out of school i think I'll invest in that idea to create that game. Be on the lookout guys for work in about 1.5 years time.

    I'll need you all to have Skype, Game Maker Studio 2 (for coders), I will need a video editor, voice actors (for every character in the game, which isn't a lot but might go in the high 50s), I will need sound designers, music composers, those with basic online coding for like special event banners and leaderboards and 2 player mission mode, I will also need an associate manager with coding skills and general art skills, story board designers, etc. it will be a complete creation from me but everyone on the story team will contribute....CAMP LIVER YOU WILL BE MADE!!!!
     
  34. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    Good luck finding and paying that many people.
     
  35. Sk8dududu

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    I confess that I sell drugs, have accidentally ruined peoples lives, and my family is disappointed in me because I get body modifications every few weeks and I make fun of their God everyday. Welcome to chronic depression, how can I let you down? ❤️
     
  36. Rivo

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    Congrats! :D
     
  37. RichHopefulComposer

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    *Tips fedora*
    m'lady
     
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  38. Cantavanda

    Cantavanda 〜Flower Prince〜

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    150XP acquired. LEVEL UP.
    NEW PERK: "Dad is disappointed", +20 damage with Occult weapons, +15% extra status effects when taking "potions"
     
  39. Sk8dududu

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    This makes me want to make a game about angsty teenagers doing drugs and parents and people of authority are the bosses. A mix of the Binding of Isaac and Scott Pilgrim.
     
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  40. ethian

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    Ok, time to my confession!

    (Piano music plays at the background...)

    I'm a teenager that detests and fears vulgarity.

    And i enjoy with Children's shows on Children's Channels on Satelital TV at home...

    They're better than those TV-14 and TV-MA junk that includes F and S words uncensored...

    I enjoy with TV-Y to TV-PG that are free of F and S words.

    And i detest and fear uncensored F and S words.

    Also, one of the children's shows that i watch on TV is not Paw Patrol, but is Ranger Rob.

    Also, i feel nervousness that i like to feel with men monster feet with sharp claws on the toes... and unbare men legs wearing stirrups but no shoes...

    And i end hugging them all...

    I also feel that nervousness with certain villians that... makes me imagine them do kung fu...

    And i end dancing by them...

    Those villians are the Nuts Goners...

    Want to see them? It's here:

    https://forum.yoyogames.com/index.php?threads/reboot-nuts-goners.50789/


    (Please don't make any fun of me because of all this!)
     
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  41. Sk8dududu

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    I'm confused. I don't understand the reference of irony..
     
  42. Cantavanda

    Cantavanda 〜Flower Prince〜

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    Nothing wrong with liking kids shows. I myself constantly think about and watch Teletubbies
     
  43. Simon Gust

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    L E G E N D A R Y
     
  44. ethian

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    Heh. I don't know jow i did it eyecatching of this way...

    I knew it's not bad after all!
     
  45. Cantavanda

    Cantavanda 〜Flower Prince〜

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    I even enjoy watching kids videos on YT, those extremely low budget, poorly edited and weird ones. There's something mesmerising and hypnotic about them. And of course much more to little toddlers, no wonder some of these have hundreds of millions of views, sometimes billions
     
  46. ethian

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    I don't watch what you watch...

    I said i watch children's channels from satelital tv instead...

    But i don't watch the ones that are too much for kids (Baby TV, for example).. I watch the ones that are not so for kids after all... ratings are TV-Y7, TV-Y7-FV and TV-PG... But never TV-14 and TV-MA.
    Well, after all, i watch TV-Y shows... But not so much...
    Sometimes i get embarassed by myself by doing this...
     
  47. Cantavanda

    Cantavanda 〜Flower Prince〜

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    Do you like TEEN TITANS GO! ? It's very addicting. Also Adventure Time, Regular Show, and Gumball.

    But I really really dislike those sitcoms made for preteens that all rip off each other. The girls are cute yes but they have terrible personalities written for them. I do love iCarly, Victorious, Zack&Cody, Drake&Josh though.
     
  48. amusudan

    amusudan Lousiest of Potatoes

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    Confession: I'm in love you, have been since I first laid eyes on you
     
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  49. TsukaYuriko

    TsukaYuriko Q&A Spawn Camper Forum Staff Moderator

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    This is what you should be telling to a psychotherapist, not to an online forum. This sounds to me like some form of unprocessed early childhood trauma.
     
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  50. ethian

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    Yes! I watched thosse before...

    Nowadays... i don't know if i'll watch those again...

    But i still like them... i don't know...

    Eh???
     

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