So its like I go out an exercise and have a good time. And I have great ideas for glorious games and splendid games. But then I go to do the coding. The first 5 minutes I'm pumped. But then its like, I slump in my chair, drained. And it's like, I have all these wonderful glorious fantasies in my head, of glorious and colourful legendary games of the amazing fantasia. But then when I go to do them, and it's like the sludge. The worst is like, sorting through the lists. And doing routine algorithms. I feel like a slavish secretary doing data entry jobs. And it's like, my head understands the concepts and much of the math equations. But when I go to do it, it never works quite right, because its just a long page of numbers and letters and I can't see what its actually doing till the game loads. And it makes me feel like a robot of code. And it feels like star trek putting in equations. It doesn't make me feel like a real airline pilot, only a cadet on star trek rapidly plugging in equations and algorithms.